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  • Noblecarriage Feature

    We answered a few questions over at: Noble Carriage

    Check out the rest of the photos and some words on livin' green. xo

  • Lila's Beats

    Lila's uncle, Austen, is a beat makin' machine - it's his favorite thing to do in the whole world. As soon as we walked into my mama's house in LA after our long ride from SF we laid down a sick beat. This video doesn't do it justice but you'll get the idea, Lila's favorite words make up the lyrics. 

    NO

    MAMI

    PURPLE

    FLOWER

    (GIGGLING) 

     

  • Stay At Home Working Mom - Impossible?

    I used to cringe at the thought of being a stay at home mom. I'd probably swear up and down you would never find me in a kitchen, barefoot and with a baby on my hip. I like to stay very busy while making tiny waves in my field. I love the feeling of finishing a project and working with a team. Outside of my kitchen of course. Where am I? In my kitchen, barefoot with my baby on my hip.

    Working from home was a lot easier until Lila started to crawl. The immobility thing was really working out in my favor. She was an amazing newborn, she'd eat, sleep, poop and sleep some more. Working from home wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. That was until she started crawling. She's so fast, I'll turn my head for one second and before you know it her little finger will be exploring the nearest plug outlet. At the end of the day, I'm so thankful to be able to stay home with my baby and witness all of her firsts and I'll continue to stay home with her until she goes to school.

    I was raised by nannies while my parents worked and although they were able to create a very cushy life for us - I will admit - I missed my mama being around and I don't think I would have gotten into half the trouble I did if I had a stay at home parent. That being said, am I still working? Yes. Is it nearly impossible? Yes. Am I in the process of hiring a nanny? Yes.

    I can't see myself settling into this barefoot and in the kitchen gig for too long and I think I'll be happier being able to still work on projects while having a hand around the house. I'll be home while Lila and said nanny hang out for a few hours. And I'll continue building a resume to fall back on when Lila starts school. This whole adventure keeps evolving and as much as I'd like to stop time and keep my baby tiny for as long as possible, I'm so curious about our future. 

  • 25

    Not in a million years would I have guessed I'd be where I am today. I'm actually really relieved to be over with my floaty early 20s. A lot has happened between 17 and 25. I've gone off a few deep ends and came back to tell the tale. I've lost a few friends, made new friends, lived in NY, worked at Vice, traveled to Africa, worked on a tv show, made a million and one bad choices, written a few scripts, spent a few days in a looney bin, shaved my head, moved to SF, graduated college, met Jocelyn, had a baby and now I'm here - with a few other moments in between. I wouldn't change any of it but most of all I'm thankful I've had the chance to travel solo. I think it's the thing that saved me from me. Out on the road on your own with no one else but yourself to deal with. These last three or so years have been really huge for me, I finally feel ok with myself. A few things I'm still learning..

    //Surround Yourself with Smart and Positive People 
    Hanging out with smart people makes you smarter because they challenge you. It helps if they are positive so not to just argue for the sake of it but to discuss and learn together. A lot of the time, smart people are funnier and that's enough of a reason to hang with those book worms. 
    //Today Creates Your Tomorrow
    Whatever choices you make today will influence your tomorrow. We don't find ourselves, we create ourselves. I've stopped waiting around for good things to happen to me. A good day is a day spent working towards a better tomorrow. 
    //We're All Unique 
    Growing up in LA I was surrounded by women getting breast implants or going on excessive juice cleanses. I thought I'd never be as pretty, skinny, funny or whatever it was as my neighbor but as soon as I could slow down and appreciate myself I could see the uniqueness in everyone around me. We spend so much time comparing ourselves to other people, we get lost and fail to see the beauty in each other's differences. And honestly, who wants to be like everyone else anyways? 
    //Always Give it Your All
    Whether a business idea, friendship, relationship or whatever. It's so easy to half ass things and lose sight of why you began to pour your heart into it in the first place. If you felt that fire in the beginning, there's something there - don't stop. 
    //To Each His Own
    It's so easy to pick up that jug of Hateraid and start judging. It's not as easy to sit back and agree to disagree. We've all had our own experiences and if someone else is stupid it's not your problem. 
    //Hamburgers Are Really Good
    I hadn't had a hamburger in 12 years. I'm a happier person now that I eat hamburgers. 
    //Travel and Keep A Journal
    Traveling will shatter every illusion you have of the world and give you a sense of community. I've learned more about myself and others through travel. Whether it's a photo journal or a written journal, you should always document your time spent traveling because you will forget the most important pieces.
    //True Friends Are Always There
    True friends are the ones you feel unbounded with, you can be your complete self around them. You’ll know because it feels genuine. Staying connected is effortless. Friends will always come and go. The real ones will stay. And the real ones are the people you grow with, the ones who help keep you grounded and who will help you reach your potential.
    //Green Smoothies
    I have one everyday. It's the easiest way to feel healthy and eat a ridiculous amount of fruit and veges without trying too hard. 
    //Learning To Love To Learn
    Once I felt a passion for learning it became easier to focus.
    //Always Go With Your Gut
    Seriously. Never doubt a gut feeling. I've doubted myself way too many times and it seems like I still haven't learned to trust those feelings. After having Lila, it's become easier but definitely not as in tune as I want to be. 

    A few photos from the celebration of my day of birth. Spent with friends and family on a weekday. There's nothing better. xo
  • Polaroids

    We shot some Polaroid photos last week with Carl Mahoney. Take a gander: 

    From Left to Right: Louise (the fish), Amanda, Thelma (the cat) and Jocelyn

  • Mondays and Wednesdays

    My legs are prickly. My eyebrows grown in.  My career has taken unexpected turns. My drawers are a mess. My thighs aren't as thin. My hair is unbrushed. My laundry is piling up. And I have bags under my eyes. 

    When I chose to be a mama I chose selflessness. Lila floated down and nestled herself in my belly, hoping I would make the right decision. It all was so unexpected, I struggled a lot not knowing what would be best for my future.  I called everyone I trusted and received a lot of mixed responses, it was really confusing at first. Everything was me, me, me.  My love for Jocelyn propelled me into what is now a life I couldn't imagine any differently. 

    I get two days to myself. Mondays and Wednesdays. Two days dedicated to getting back in shape, working on new projects and taking care of myself. The funny thing is, all I think about is Lila. I'm worried she's cold or hungry.  Logic tells me she's with Jocelyn and all is okay but I just can't shake the feeling that she might need an extra layer or maybe her diaper has been wet a second too long. The list is endless.

    I've changed. 100% of me is dedicated to this little person. My lack of sleep or unshaven legs can wait. I can't wait to get home and tend to this sweet little soul. She's mine. I feed her with body. My energy is her nutrients. She's part of me forever.  She was meant to be mine and I couldn't be any more proud. I'm thankful for this change. I'm excited for the greatest adventure ahead, prickly legs, baggy eyes and all.

    Sidenotes: We just received Lila's passport and our tickets to Paris, also Lila peed on me while I was trying to take naked pictures with her... twice